Life, love and loss

 Ahh, what a life ? 

You have faith that the universe will provide, usually it does. That mustard seed of faith we rely on as thinking, doing, conscious beings lets us believe that the rainbow does end and that dream or goal you struggled for will come to those that pursue it.  Think again! 

There are forces that undermine your rainbow, you can't see them or feel them but they are there, lurking in the background wanting what you have, taking what you strive for, pushing and pulling on the innocent for their own guilty secrets. Such is the scenario of the enabler. The handler, manager, sycophant, deceivers that preys on trust.  Greed and envy are the driver and trust and faith have no place to run. 

My love had such evil in his life, betrayed, robbed and coerced  into oblivion, they knew which buttons to press, how to hold him there and what strings to pull  they knew would work for them, Predators taking advantage of a weekness? an illness!! thats the difference in the bigger picture of this,  all the while this fake false reality co existed motivated by greed and bias so they could take what was his.. including his life. He once said to me , people are poison in a relationship. It should be you and me and god in between, In hindsight I married an army of evil.  Should I have known? How could I? the facade was so clever, so patronising and silent on so many levels, How they all justify their actions is the stuff of movies and fables. Clueless naively he marched to their drum and ended up alone, suffering, fed nothing but lies and promises of things that were never going to come,  Caught in the web and enabled to death. 

Since his death, I think about the lack of compassion anyone had for me, mainly due to the twisted scenario they called the truth , which was nothing more than a delusional rant We spoke lovingly daily and for some length about our life,  progress, safety and health as well as plans . Beautiful plans shutdown by the the ignorant, player hater takers. The idiocy and frustration even now of my plea's going unanswered as if I was dramatising some non existent illness, which was quite real and confirmed in 2006. 3 episodes are unrecoverable, This was his 3rd episode and his last.

He died alone in an empty apartment with no food and no one to care for him while he bought into the lie believing they had his back. . My only consolation was that he figured it out in his final days and wanted to come home but was too ill to travel half way round the world. He wanted to create and participate in his creative pursuits, passions and goals, he wanted to be loved  He deserved to live.

I have spent the last 5 years in disbelief and sorrow, how can this be happening, such blatant  incomprehensable corruption of not only the moral fibre of our very core, The system  failures hiding under the guise of freedom of choice. Being perverted and used is not a choice!... the non existant responses to a man that gave more than he got going unheard while he slowly and painfully slipped away. 

Saveable? and you may ask why he didn't do something to save himself?, he did. He stopped drinking, rested, prayed not knowing how sick he was. He believed he would get through it as he had before but the damage and the lack of basic care in his final days. A pattern seen before, they knew it and used it In the past he was rescued and healed  but no...... they took him forever..  No medical care was provided which horrifies me to this day, Unsure of where he was with only a taxi driver to get him food etc. I madly tried to zero in on the ip address, emails, called the cops, friends, relations, even ambulance services. booked a flight. Skype and virtual world to help him. It was all too hard obviously too late after 9 days apparently to make "that" call to the creeps interstate. The secret silent men in control.  bottom line? they orchestrated  this death. No points for him on this track. Only the fraudulent saw any of that. That was!.... the point

Each day is a struggle with lighter moments none the less a struggle with a heavy mind full of questions and answers that would satisfy my soul but you know they will never come. I still have faith.  Regaining the motivation to paint, enjoy music. All the things we loved..........decimated. .....I love him dearly

Extraordinary moments in time

Hi all,

Extraordinary moments in time, equals how I and (most of us) perceive this era and its consequences, while we sit here playing on borrowed energy from the planet, the stresses and strains on mother nature are, obvious! yes I can hear the volcano's groan over my "mothers finest" cd..... ignored? we can't change anything?? Carbon neutral? naaaaa .."cant be bothered or cant afford change" carbon tax is just tax, sure, it might slow some down but to me it smacks of, lets pay to screw things up more!.


Real change comes from technologies developed by bio/green industry and movements, yes yes, that's right , the one that most laughed at 20 plus years ago, 2 words........WIND.........POWER. ....."I love the sound of a turbine in the morning!" and if a tsunami hits us, no problem, no fallout, umm let me see, always wind?? hmm equalls always energy........I really could go on forever! but I have some painting to complete.....))


Lobby anyone and everyone you can to switch ASAP, pull the plug on fossil fuels, walk more, use natuaral alternatives for common household purposes, educate children, support developing countries to adopt carbon neutral, lead the way, in any small way you can.....make exsisting cities self sustaining, it can be done.. love the planet, care for the planet before it really kicks our xxx and we are gone, that is reality, no more people equals no more children to delight us art to stimulate and sooth our souls, music,for generations to develop and expand on. No more nothing.............................NOW! go turn a light off your not using

Thankyou global community

Australia is "Going Under"

The events of the past week, have left all Australians traumatized. My heart goes out to all the elderly, animals and families that have lost loved ones, NOW imagine over 1 million square miles (approx the size of Germany and Italy combined) UNDERWATER. and its still raining!!!.

Dear old Brisvegas as we love to call our 3rd largest city Brisbane, has over 50 suburbs affected as well as the CBD. The toll in crops, livestock and homes is just incredible in terms of destruction. Not to mention (which I note, no one has) the indigenous communities of north Queensland, still wander as they have for thousands of years, and no one mentions them???....I guess those lives lost will remain a mystery.

"I cant imagine " can you?

If your religous say a prayer for those in trouble up there, if your not, send thoughts to the communites in too many towns to mention and the hero's out there risking their own lives to get supplies and assistance to people that are cut off, some have been for up to a week and will be for some time to come , my freind Marlyn recounts how her community is stranded, and one couple that did run a catering company had a large stock of food are putting on a dinner this friday for the town to try to lift spirits, this, is what us Aussies are all about. let us all hope this passes quickly.

Queensland is the most naturally beautiful tropical oasis, so many delights and treasures. Time to look after this planet, like, we are not being warned!!!! ..............................plan globally a future for all.

Peace and love, Nicci

USA Today!!

Diversity in art is the fuel we all crave as an artist, my experience since touring has been quite an adventure, the folk art of the mid west, the modern art in major cities, the political and social statements of fine graffitti artists always fascinates me, it says alot about culture and climates. Also the musical journey is fascinating, My introduction to Brother Ali and his social comment released in 2006 ,

Uncle Sam Goddam,
says it all for me,

My adventure in Canada and its incredible design and architecture will leave me with memories and inspirations for a long time to come, Amazing!!!

Nothing is accidental, Is Sydney the new black?

When something like an accident occurs, you go over what you could have done differently. You wonder if there is some strange force out there. No one expects to be hit by a drunk driver at 6.40am on a monday morning. A defining moment, after you injuries heal, your left wondering why. Your left with the pain and recovery, What I find so strange is that a guy, drunk and obviously defying the law can be so smug, My drunk said to me, "I am not to blame for your issues" One's mind boggles at the arrogance and obvious delusion that he can actually think like that. I personally did nothing wrong, was in my lane, minding my own business when he t boned the side of my car from the rear. I want to thank all my friends that cared for me, Lynne, Philip, Rodney and Michelle, without you I would have been alone, I would not have had the courage to get back behind the wheel, Take a break in America , and spend alot more time doing what I do best, painting. It also gave me the courage to get out of Melbourne and move to Sydney. "I love it, although not new to me, Sydney was a second home as a child, I love Bronte beach, I would walk the Bondi to Bronte walk to get my strength back. I love how people talk to each other and are helpful, the fashion and the street vibes. I love the art scene here, vibrant and dynamic, wandering the galleries of the Surrey Hills area. Brett Whitely studio and the other well known dealers. I am totally inspired. Time heals all wounds, and time allows us to redescover who we really are. I reflect on time and hope all the drunk drivers of the world think twice. pain is something we can live without. Disaster should be natural not man made. Live and let live as we see fit, a simple request but one that does nothing to replace so many lives wrecked and destroyed by a drunk. law enforcement should be tougher on offenders.... period.

Women, talents and creativity

I see alot of girls, mothers, young and old, testing creativity. Some are stunted by confidence, health issues, the past, abuse and fear while others flourish, I would like to encourage all women no matter what your situation to find your mojo!. You may have a signature dish, a gift for handcraft, art, music, writing, fashion, well you know, we do things well! When in doubt , at times of stress unemployment or loss, look within, look how you can help yourself and try it.

Try to find that spark or an idea to move forward, Not only good therapy but a way to resolve and heal your life, Open your possabilities and dreams up to a new cycle in your life. Do not accept negative comments, Do not give in to pressures, keep going, keep trying, keep creating and be your own best friend and surround yourself with motivated posative people.

I hope anyone or if only one person that reads this affirmation, embrace it and move forward. Economic hard times are also a brilliant motivator. Desperation usually means doing something stupid, do something smart! and find your niche. Go for it! Don't look back.......x Nicci ................Comments welcome!

Nicci Lane Art

Welcome!

Thankyou for visiting my blog page. I am an Australian artist and a virtual world artist. I use various mediums from oil, acrylic, ink on canvas as well as silk in my real life works and prim custom texture and scripting in Second Life.

For those of you that know my work my themes are nature and the environment, I use Secondlife as a platform for awareness and have created installations for Burning Life 2008-2009 (the virtual partner) of Burning Man festival. SLB6 and have exhibited, promoted and run galleries (nominated finalist for best venue owner operator 2007) Griffin Gallery of Fine Art Kitaro) which I built and promoted in the virtual world. Various exhibits in Australia.

Design projects include : The Interactive childrens space for the Malta National Art Gallery.
Built and curated ArtLife Gallery and promoted some of Second Lifes finest creators.
Various publications such as Best of Secondlife, Modiva Fashion, Anna Avalanche blog spot. and I am sure if you google me, I appear on approx 8 pages where people have mentioned and exhibited my works via facebook, Flicka and various intitutions and organizations around the globe, which just amazed and delighted me. Peruse my art, comments and links, feel free to contact me for commisions or locations in Australia. Imagination and Art is everything.

Peace and love ..........Nicci